Thoughts, What Is Next

While there has been a vast of wonderful things that have taken place in my life over the past couple of months there are still things in the lingering and weigh heavily upon my mind!  While I have to keep these to myself those who know they relate to are kept in the need to know group!  I keep a lot of me guarded and often times I find myself holding onto my heart and guarding it to ensure it does not get hurt again!

This is one of the hardest parts for me to loosen up on as with anyone who has ever had their heart broken and put on a platter for everyone to view certainly will have a great compassion and understanding of.  I certainly do not want to come across as saying that I am not opening my heart up because that could not be further from the truth.  I just know what I have endured and where I have come from and want to ensure that I never find myself in that position again!  The next time that my lips produce the words "I Love You" will be with the one that I will spend the rest of my life with as I want the type of marriage that my parents shared prior to both of them passing and going to be with the Lord!  That is all I have ever wanted and more than that I want to share my life with someone who has their spiritual roots grounded and their eyes upon the Lord first then family second.

Often times I have been finding myself more and more turning to God for answers that I am not able to figure out.  At this point in my life you would certainly think that I would have that under control, however, it seems there is still so much that is not been answered and that I find myself looking for the answer.

However, God being as merciful as he is there has been several answers provided to some of my inner most delicate areas of my life.  I am so glad that he has provided me with those as I certainly was beginning to think that they would never come to pass and now they are in the here and now!  Sometimes I have to pinch myself just to ensure myself that I am not dreaming or living in another world of fantasy.  There are times when I burst into tears and most of those times is when God is speaking directly to my inner soul and revealing more and more of himself to me in a way that I never would imagine.  Now I am finding myself spending more time talking with Jesus and leaning upon him to reveal the answers to my heart and encourage me along the way!

God has certainly placed a great deal of responsibility upon men and especially those who are married or those who will be down the road!  Being the spiritual leader of your home and the teacher can be a daunting appointing and one that requires you to keep yourself in a state of learning and willingness to take less of yourself and more of God in control of your every action.

For those who have children this is especially critical as God holds you in complete accountability for the spiritual growth of your children. While I certainly have learned along my journey of life that you can't always control the choices your children will make as they grow into the adult world, however, you will have to account for the lack of wisdom that was failed to be instilled into their very life from you.  While I welcome this position it is one that carries a great deal of responsibility and one that requires you to be buried in the Bible daily to make sure you are falling into the guidelines that are in place for husbands and fathers.  Are you up to that challenge.  While I recognize that almost anyone can be a father it is an even greater level when you achieve the title of "Daddy".  Where do you stand?  Have you surrendered all of you and asked for more of God to take control of your life?  Believe me when you do and are willing to surrender it all then and only then will you begin to feel the divine blessings to be bestowed upon you.

While I am here on this topic let me proceed into one other area and that is one that has been weighing upon my heart for a while.  I have heard so many people say things like "I am doing what God wants and studying to find myself proved worthy of his love" and then they proceed to ask why God has not granted them all of the desires of their heart!  This is simple to answer....sometimes you just are not ready for those to be bestowed upon you and God is waiting until the perfect time to do so.  Keep in mind that God does not work on our time frame and sometimes we just have to sit back and wait patiently for God to deliver his promises to us.  It certainly is not because he feels we don't deserve it but just wanting to make sure we are in a greater level of growth to be able to handle it when he does deliver them and that they will not change our position in life and more importantly does not change our love for him other than to increase it.

As we start to climb the stairs that lead to heaven one thing is vitally important and that is that you take one step at a time.  Trying to skip steps will surely result in a fall and sometimes they hurt more than we really want for them too.



Sometimes you will run into a cloudy path along the way but just know that it does not last long and if you listen to the voice of God you will surely find your way.  How many times have we all fell off of the course God put us on to pursue our own selfish desires.  It is a wonderful thing to know that God always has his arms open and ready for us to come back home to him.

Where is the path you are taking in life leading you?  Is it the one that will ultimately please God and for him to look upon you with that awesome voice and tell you how proud of you he is?  Never fear my wonderful friends for even if you fall off of your course there is always help close by and help that knows where you have been and where you are headed and his name is Jesus.  Learn to call upon his name more and see the changes in your life to unfold before your very eyes.

Angels In Life

Have you taken time to consider if it is possible to have an Angel whom is responsible for watching over you?  Have you ever thought that it could be someone who actually is closer to you in your life than you have ever thought was possible.

What makes this thought even more intriguing is when you are in love with your Angel.  I know who mine is and has always been.  She has buried herself deep within my heart and will stay there till the day I die.  I long to be with her and hope that God will permit this as there has never been any human being who has been so tightly knit into the very fibers of my heart as this one special person.  She has more power of my life than other people have ever dreamed of having.  She has the one key that nobody has ever held and it is the golden key to my heart!  Why is it that God places these wonderful souls in our life?  Is it to bring us into a greater being, is it his perfect chosen one for us, is it his perfect will and desire for our life?  We could sit and entertain this question for answers and I suppose come of with some of the same answers.

However, for me I know who my Angel is and hopefully she knows exactly where she stands in my life!!  To be able to describe my love for her would be a timely process and one that would more than likely take more words than what I could readily pull from any resource such as a dictionary or other learning tool.  Her love is etched into my heart and soul and it is her love and her love only that comforts me in some of my times of greatest needs.

It is like I am walking through a forest where the light is peering through the trees but I know it is her loving spirit shining through that is guiding me through the path of life.

When I hear a bird whistle in the distance it is like her voice is trying to reach my soul and comfort me with her love and keep me on the path to seek her out and find her.  Is she ready to be loved more than like anything else she has ever experienced?  I can only hope so because that is my full intention to love her more than anything she has ever experienced and from anyone.  It is time for her in her life to be happy and I certainly want to be the one who makes it happen.  I am so looking for the day when I can feel my lips press against hers and to hold her close so she is able to feel the beat of my heart and to know she has finally found the one true love that she has been in search for.  She knows where she stands in my life as I have by no means kept this a secret but I still can't wait until she can feel this overtaking her heart and soul!  Sometimes we have to experience a significant amount of pain whether it be in relationships, our health and other forms in order for us to be able to find that one true love and to finally realize where our resting place is. I have found mind and it is in her arms......

Now it is your time to open up and let me fill you with a love that is overflowing!  You gotta know sweetheart that I love you more than the air that I breathe!  Can you feel it?  Can you sense it?  It is all here and it is all for you!

A Visit With My Brother

I was able to speak to my brother on the phone today for the first time in quite some time.  It was so refreshing even though the reason we ended up on the phone was attributed to my recent hospital visit.  After I ended our conversation due to my phone needing to recharge it was then that it hit me that this was such a substantial part that was missing in my life.

Although I have known all my life about what is biologically my half-brother for one reason or another it was almost like we were cut off from one another.  Sadly, as in the case of many family members, we became even more distant due to living in different states and both of us having families and children and of course our own issues and problems that were having to be dealt with!  What used to be quite a close knit family years ago as we were growing up over time and distance seems that people begin to loose contact with those they love and care for the most.

Like a piece of the puzzle we are now trying to bring it all back into perspective and I feel that with effort on both ends we will begin to rebuild a relationship that will blossom into one that nobody will be able to come between any more.  I am fortunate that my brother has found his salvation in Jesus Christ and realizes what I already know but need to come to terms with and that is that God is the one in control not us.  As I sit and truly take a deep look into my life I now am beginning to realize how much I have missed in my life by trying to control my own destiny as opposed to letting the one who is in control of it all take charge and lead me in the paths that he would have me travel.

Some people value money or other monetary things in life than what they should really hold value in and that value is found in your family, friends and most importantly Jesus Christ.  So many of us want to take credit for our success of what we have achieved in our life when in fact we shouldn't be able to take credit for anything and give credit where the credit is do.  We are nothing more than mere vessels in life who have been given the privilege of breathing due to a love of a heavenly father that gives us that right!

What a better way to show your love back to him than to take some of your previous gold and give it to where it belongs to begin with.  Phillip, I was so pleased to hear your plans with your lump sum when you receive it to give back to the church.  Talk about total selflessness....this would be the perfect illustration of what Jesus would have each of us do.  I can remember for years trying to guide my younger brother when he was experiencing some difficult issues in his life to say the least and now I am finding myself needing to lean upon him for his direction and spiritual growth.  I guess we can go back and forth encouraging one another and uplifting one another in The Lord and being a blessing to one another and to each others family.

So much has transpired in the past week since I fell ill and I am not sure if there is a spiritual connection to all of this being allowed to happen for a divine reason or not....all I can do is to sit back and see what takes place next!

Life's Mysteries, Explained

Have you taken time from your day today to truly relish all that life has to offer to you and your family?  Have you taken time today to think about where you came from and where you are going in life?  Have you taken time to realize that life is precious and that what you make of it determines what will come of it?

Well these are some very interesting questions that I believe all of us have had to answer at one point or another and probably face on a daily basis whether we truly want to undertake them or not.  What makes the difference in this unique episode of life is exactly how we handle each of these questions and with what priority that we place upon them.  For some of us these question's may not have a direct bearing on our day to day life, however, in the long run of things they play a greater part than we realize.  Stop and think how your day starts from getting up, to deciding what to wear, to where you will eat lunch and what life holds in store for you on that particular day.  Many of us do not pay any special attention to this, however, if you take a few moments at the close of each day to review some of these areas then examine them one by one and see exactly what it was that drove you to your decision, I believe that you may even astonish yourself.

Life is composed of many colors and end up creating the blend that we call life.  I can only presume that the hues in each of our life's represent the various elements that make up our very existence and to what we owe our pleasures we enjoy on a day by day basis.

Seriously, take time to examine the picture illustrated on the left here and then let your mind drift for a bit and see how many color's are in your life.  What do each of these colors represent.  For some a portion may represent sadness, another may represent happiness and for some it may very well be a mixed blend of several compositions from our life.  Have you ever wondered if you could adjust the colors in your life being that they represent various elements and transitions?  I suppose in some aspect we can adjust the blending and saturation of the various hues with some fine tuning.  Then again, I wonder if we can over adjust these settings that ultimately affect the harmonious transitions that were predestined for each of our lives.  These are but some interesting and intriguing questions that permeate my mind on a daily basis as life carries  me along the path and colors that it has to offer.

Sometimes when life begins to spiral out of control....maybe we each need to take time to see what the true colors in our life truly are and what they represent.  

Is it to be presumed that we have tried to adjust the color blend based on the previous illustration too much?  Or is it that we are merely trying to refine the color as we would desire to see it displayed on a HDTV.  I think that we as humans have come up with a pre defined color spectrum for what is acceptable and what is not.  That being said when is it safe for us to make the adjustments necessary to make our life feel as complete as possible?  Do we ever seem to achieve a level of satisfaction that is acceptable to us or are we always in constant motion to obtain more than what possibly was in the greater plan for our life.  I suppose we can swing a variety of way and directions on any of these thoughts, however, I just wanted to take a part of my day to examine them a little closer to bring a new meaning into my own life and possibly that of someone else as well.  Share with us what it is that helps you to blend all of the colors in your life together and what works best for you!

It my sincere desire for each of my reader's to have a wonderful and joyful day and that life bring you all of the blessings that you desire for your life.

In the walk of life....take the time to bestow upon someone else a few extra blessings and then and only then will you begin to feel as though you have achieved the ultimate direction for your life!  There are a multitude of ways to do this and for some it is quite easy.  One thing I know for sure is that there is absolutely no greater satisfaction that comes from life than being able to be just a fraction of a blessing to someone and to be able to make a difference in their life.  Whether it be in a kind word you spoke to them, something you did special for them or just the mere fact that you were even there to begin with!  Have a wonderful and blessed week and thanks for taking time to read and share this!