Stop The Bus

Ok so the the virus bug has found its way into my body and is tearing me apart one string at a time.  I feel like I have been run over by a bus and then backed over again!  I have felt this coming on for a while and have done everything within my power to keep it back, however, it has finally made its way into my body and I am feeling every annoying aspect of it.  My head feels like it is ready to explode, my chest feels like it is ready to blow up and even the hair on my head hurts.  Talk about being in misery!

I think I would rather have someone just shoot me as opposed to have to deal with this garbage.  Well I have certainly laid claim to my healing and restoration to 100%.  However, I am not able to remember when it was that I felt this bad as the direct result of any viral infection.  I am going to have to keep on keeping on as I have several things that are in the works right now and I must stay on top of them.  While I have several readers of this blog site I would like each of you to lift up my wonderful friend, adopted dad and a great spiritual leader  up in prayer while he endures his medical issues.  I am not releasing his name to protect his identity and some other issues.  He is going to have a heart catheterizing done Friday and we are standing firm that the great healer and physician Jesus will intervene and to correct any possible abnormality that may be found and to correct it and to bring him back to 100%.

Some of my closest friends know that I have been fighting with what either is a possible sty or something else that is affecting my right eye.  Needless to say with the addition of this viral condition that has taken my body by storm is making my poor right eye feel as though it is dancing within my head and I personally think I would much rather have someone poke me in it as opposed to have to feel like this.

My wonderful friends have been providing me their gold bands to rub across it hoping that this will help to remove it but I have to wonder if there isn't something more going on inside the eye itself.  It is throbbing and feels worse than when I have been in a fight and someone hitting me in it.  If anyone has ideas or suggestions on this one, please feel free to comment here and leave me your ideas and thoughts.  I just know it has to stop!  To add to the complications of all the above my right ear has been plugged for nearly 3 months and I feel like I am trapped in a washing machine turned upside down.  If anyone has a gun just shoot me or if you have a baseball bat just thump me with it and I will recover from that point in time and thank you for doing so.

It is like my internal hard drive has failed and I now need to run the recovery disc to bring it back to life.  Ok, who took it from me?  Please return it to its rightful owner so I can place it into my expansion slot and start the process to restore and repair my internal hard drive.  I have a virus and must remove it before it finds my protected and cherished internal organs that are finally in recovery mode and begins to take a deeper hold on me.

Eeeek, I shall not let this happen! Have you ever felt so bad that you honestly wished you were dead?  Anyway, look I know I have a lot to live for and there are some awesome things going on in my life right now and believe me I am very grateful to be alive but just making that equation that many of us have endured when you are ill and feeling like someone threw you under the bus.  All I can say is "Stop The Bus".  Check with me later to see how I am feeling and what is going on directly in my life!  Peace and blessings to each of you!

A Man Gives Birth

Yesterday was the most interesting day I think I have had in my life in quite some time.  While it started off as any other day in my life does, it then turned to into what had to be the most painful experience that I have ever had in my 44 years of life.

While performing my daily activities and chores that I do on a daily basis, my body then began to experience what by far was the most intense pain I have ever had overtake my body.  I was busy trying to work on redesigning a new website for a friend and the organization that represent and work for when I was nearly rendered lifeless in intense pain.  Needless to say I was a bit overwhelmed and felt as though I was ready to roll over and throw my paws up in the air and hoped that someone would just come along and shoot me.  I had no clue what was going on but knew that I needed some serious medical care and quick.  I had the sudden urge that I needed to urinate but was not able to and felt like I was ready to literally blow up if I did not go to the restroom.  I once again had tried to urinate and still nothing.  What was wrong with me?  Then it hit.....pain like I had never experienced before started to radiate from my right side of my abdomen down into my groin area.

The image you see on the left shows you two items that everyone should be able to identify.  The one located between the penny and the safety pin is a kidney stone and this is what had invaded my body.  Needless to say I was fixing to give birth and hadn't even had the opportunity of taking a birthing class.

I was almost rendered lifeless and walking was not going to be easy since I was curled up in my bed experiencing some of the worse pain of any physical ailment that I had ever endured.  I had contacted my room mate that was at work to let her know I felt like I was dying and that I could no longer withstand it.  I had become sick to my stomach and everything I had tried to eat that morning or drink was coming back up quicker than I could get it down my throat.  Eventually, the EMS was called and they assisted me out the door to a cot and placed into an ambulance for transportation to our local Emergency Room.  Upon arrival I only knew that I was in pain and that I needed to be provided some relief from it.  They immediately provided me with some pain medication and immediately prepped me for a CT Scan.  After coming back into the Emergency Room the physician had advised me that I was experiencing a kidney stone.  Ok, so I know some people who have experienced this before and have heard them exclaim about how it felt like giving birth.  I had always wondered if this was over exaggerated until I was facing it now myself.  The doctor had advised me that it was too far down into the urinary tract for them to be able to do anything with and that I would have to pass this on my own.  Needless to say that entered my brain and automatically translated into the fact that the pain I was experiencing was only going to intensify.

They sent me home under some heavy narcotics along with an Rx for additional pain medication.  I decided not to have the Rx filled and to just endure what was going to be one of the most hideous medical situations in my life.  I returned home to lay on the couch and sleep this whole experience off when it hit......you guessed it....the time had now come to give birth to my stone and it hurt just like everyone had said that it would.  Talk about bringing tears to the eyes and making a grown man feel like he was ready to hit his knees.....this certainly done it for me.

Did I forget to mention that while in the ER they had to catheterize me since I was not able to void my urine.  That in itself was a painful experience since they are now trying to insert what felt like 5 miles of tubing into a region that was already blocked by a foreign object.

So at approximately 12:40 A.M. it finally hit me.....the pressure was building and I knew that I was fixing to have what seemed almost like an out of body experience.  I finally give birth to my kidney stone.  While some may see this as a bit humorous and I choose to describe this, there was a reason for doing so and that is to warn men that if you ever have to endure this same encounter the pain you are going to experience is equivalent to what women will endure during the birthing process.  So after having given birth to a shard type object I was doing some research to exactly what causes a kidney stone.  Below is what they have to say about what causes them.

What Causes Kidney Stones


Doctors do not always know what causes a stone to form. While certain foods may promote stone formation in people who are susceptible, scientists do not believe that eating any specific food causes stones to form in people who are not susceptible.

A person with a family history of kidney stones may be more likely to develop stones. Urinary tract infections, kidney disorders such as cystic kidney diseases, and certain metabolic disorders such as hyperparathyroidism are also linked to stone formation.

In addition, more than 70 percent of people with a rare hereditary disease called renal tubular acidosis develop kidney stones.

You can read more about the causes of kidney stones and other urilogical diseases here.

The Power To Overcome

In life there are many things that can take control of you.  Whether they be addictions, emotional issues or things in life that have a way to take complete control over everything.

I am here to tell you that there is good news and that is that you are not alone.  Millions have suffered from and currently suffer from addictive behaviors that seem to take control over your life and the ones that you love.

Addictions come in a multitude of sizes and colors in life and can be from mild to absolutely compulsive and have the ability to make you do things that you normally would not think about under normal circumstances.  Why is it that some families are stricken with this debilitating disease and others are not?  That has been a question that has kept the doctors and researchers busy for a number of years trying to figure out and provide answers to.  I believe that addictive behaviors are in  part hereditary in nature and almost make a person predispositioned to having them in their life at one point or another.

Of course there are outside factors that can drive a person to become an addictive type personality.  We will take a closer look at what some of those are a little later in this post.  Often times, a person who suffers from an addiction most generally do not understand what they have or the underlying causes.  It is not until one usually has to enter into a treatment of sorts that they begin to put a finger on exactly what it is that has taken control of their life and how to begin to bring it under control.

One of the most well know addictions is to alcohol and drug use.  Millions of people worldwide are afflicted with this disease and have lost nearly everything in their life as a result.  Studies have shown that most people who suffer from this sort of addiction usually have had a member of their family who, also, has suffered from the same addiction at one point or another.

Researchers are still trying to determine if this is triggered by a chemical imbalance in humans or if it is more psychological with accompanying outside factors that seem to make this more known to people who would otherwise not likely succumb to the addictive lifestyle.  Do you know a person who suffers from an addiction?  If so, then you more than likely understand what it does to a person and their family and how destructive it can be.

However, there are more addictions than most of you know of and just about anything in life can produce an addictive personality.  There are those who are addicted to playing games online, social networking addicts and then we can venture off into physiological addictive types as those experienced by those who are OCD.  Believe it or not even the aforementioned can be highly debilitating and cause more issues in your personal life than  you can begin to believe.

What is it exactly that drives a person to develop an addictive personality.  Is it that they have missed out on something that they consider to have been important for the to feel complete or is it more a physiological determination that decides who will become an addict or not?  Sadly once a person realizes they have an addiction they often times will transfer that addiction to something else in an effort to hide the previous one.

We certainly are interested in hearing about your addictions and how you were able to overcome them.  Share with us an our viewers about this.  The one thing about recovery is that there is help from a multitude of sources and many who are standing by to assist you through this.