Where My Heart Is To Stay

Well there is a new flavor being added to the music genre on our site!  For some who may keep up with me or read any of my post I have found out exactly where my heart is and now all I have to do is find a way for it to meet up with where it belongs.  For years I have carried around a love with me that I never truly realized how deep it was until I was fortunate to come back in contact with the one who put it there in the first place!  

They say that your first love is the one who keeps you going through life and now I have finally come to terms with exactly what they meant when they said that!  For years I have carried this love around with me and often times have had to keep it in a very sacred place in my heart as to not allow anyone to be able to remove it from me or to tarnish it!  Now I have been blessed enough to come back in contact with the very person that this love was meant and designed for and I have never felt any better in my life than what I have felt in the past several days!  What I would give to share this love with her and to be able to wrap my arms and my love around her and to have her feel what I have felt for years!

I want to be the one who holds her heart and her soul and to keep it protected and sound!  She is going through so much in life right now and how my heart aches to know that i can't be by her side to be the one who holds and comforts her and to reassure her that I will always be there no matter what and till the end!  While sitting here and listening to the new selection of music that you will now hear and enjoy upon this blog site I have went through an entire box of Kleenex's wiping away the tears away from my eyes.  They are not tears of sorrow but tears of overwhelming love that I have now unlocked and allowed to be free and completely open and out in the air for all to know!  I can only hope that their is a fraction of the same sentiment as what I am experiencing on my half located on hers.

I had spent years trying to find the only one that I have loved more than life itself and now for some reason destiny seems to be playing a larger role in my life that what I ever thought was possible.  Let me take you back into my childhood years where this all began!  See we used to live next door to one another when I was approximately 8 yrs old and even then I knew that someday in life I would want to be with her forever!  Now I realize for some that may seem a little hard to believe but it progressed from there!  Later in our teen years we had become close friends, although I had to restrain what feelings I had inside as we both had our own little things going on as most teenagers do!  When I was a senior in high school my daughter was born and the one who I was so in love with was named as the Godmother of my child!  

Later I would divorce the mother of my children but what stayed with me was the love of my life whom I would end up loosing contact with for nearly 25 years.  Now we have been blessed enough to be able to speak to one another, even though we live just about on opposite sides of the country!  What I have come to realize is that even with the distance there is nothing that will ever stand in the way of the love that I have for her and I will go the end of the earth just to have a chance to prove that to her!  I have written another blog post on here that was entirely dedicated to her and I hope she enjoyed reading it as much as I did writing it!

I know this is where God intended for me to go as nothing has ever felt more true and pure in my heart that giving all to her!  Michelle......I am so in love with you and have from the first time we ever met!  Just know that no matter what I will always carry my love for you everywhere that I go and with a pride that will show through and through.  You are the one, you are the beat in my heart and I want to be your everything!  What will happen next?  I guess this is entirely in God's hands and I am so praying that he hears mine and let's me be in the heart and life of the one I truly love!