Cloudy Thoughts

Have you ever had one of those days where there are so many thoughts running around your head that you almost felt as though your head were in the clouds?  Today has been one of those days for me.  Although, I am clear and focused on what the important item's are in my life and the things that are causing my trigger points, however, I am having a multitude of perplexing thoughts and it is causing my brain to have to warp into overdrive to accommodate each of them today!

What exactly is it that brings us to this point in our lives? Is it that we have not given ourselves enough time to have thoughts or is it that when we have them we have a tendency to push them to the wayside?  I know for me that many times I have to push my thoughts and feelings to the side as I have so many things going on that it leaves me little time to truly think upon some of these things.  However, there comes the evening when I can sit and listen quietly to the soft voices that flow through the trees like a cool autumn breeze and gently caressing my soul.

Now my soul is whispering to me and telling me everything that I have been waiting to hear and allow my heart to open up to its magic and the mysteries of things that have not yet been discovered and those that are waiting in the balance of life.  Of course, like many others there are things that are weighing in heavily upon my soul.  What is even more significant is the new seed that has been planted within my spirit and one that is waiting to be watered.

All that is needed now is the right person holding the watering jug and to pour it upon the seedling waiting to blossom.  What could this possibly be?  Is it something that I have yearned for and am longing for?  Is this my hearts way of telling me that it is time for new things within my life?  As I sit here and listen to some wonderful sounds of my smooth jazz collection I feel my soul drifting into the dream world and it is having some awesome thoughts of things I dream of.  It is almost like my soul and my most secret thoughts have met and now are dancing together in unison and are looking for the right moment to manifest the wonderful flower that will soon emerge and bloom into something that has never been seen before.

I feel this unique warmth overcoming my body and taking over my soul!  What is this magical feeling that has taken me by surprise?  Is it a new love?  Is it something that has been longing to appear in my life for a while and now chooses to make itself known.

I suppose I can sit and ponder upon this for hours upon hours without and clear answers.  However, I have to say I know that there is something in the balance that I am not able to put my finger upon but I think I can put a finger on a possible cause.

For the moment I will keep this to myself as I surely to not want to jump to conclusions nor make presumptions.  All I can do is hope for the best outcome possible and to be prepared to celebrate in whatever it is that my spirit is trying to offer unto me.  Surely for once in my life God has heard my prayers and quite possibly the answer is seeking to emerge.

How will it affect me and will the person delivering the news be as taken over with this unique feeling as me?  I can only hope so and I would want them to experience this for themselves.  Everyone should have this opportunity to feel what is hanging within the balance of my spirit.  Rest assured that when you have this experience you will feel like nothing else matters and all you do is wait for the answer knowing that it is close yet so far away!